Sunday, May 16, 2010

Inexplicable.

I was planning on completing my post on Glee but something hit me. Something else. Something that I'm really pondering on. Lets put it simply/ As a teenager I'm going through this "phase" as most might put it. Yes indeed, a "phase" a stage in which life goes through a mode of change of some sort sort of like the motion of transitioning. Not the before, or the after, but the process. The act, the motion, the committing, the deed. Funnily, all processes have their products before the end product. What do I mean? I guess I can't really say I'm sure, or how sure I am of explaining it, but what I think this head of mine truly means, is that in the midst of all we do, and all we say, there's always something produced, before the actual product. Simply put. There's never a sure result for all actions lead to varying results, of which when combined together, produces the supposed end result seen heard and thought of by the naked eyes, ears and mind. The rational.
Nothing really is rational is it? How can it be? Why is it that an action can actually be rationalized so easily, when there are many reasons why it isn't. Like, why is it rational for an adult to discipline a child, but no the other way round? Honestly, I am not arrowing this at some parent-child relationship issues, I am really wondering why so. Why is it rational for someone older to yell or scold, reprimand or reason to someone younger? What if the younger is right? If they are, then them correcting the older is deemed as rude, and they are punished? What is the rational behind that? Why are all these mannerisms and 'respect' preset for us humans to follow so easily, and  since we do, why do we follow them?
Why is it okay, for adults to get worried over politics, but when teenagers face such oppressions, it is "part and parcel of life"? Day in, day out, people constantly state the reasons for the ever rising suicidal rate for teenagers is because they couldn't take what was "part and parcel of life", is it not unfair that teenagers in general are viewed as stupid for even thinking that way, just because these older people have lived through it before, and therefore it is seen that every single living piece of young being should be able to? What is this monstrosity of  expectations of generation some have not lived in, live to experience in, and pass off their age as a negotiating factor for experience? Teenagers aren't just pieces of meat being molded into the narrow-minded working drones of today's society. They aren't just going through a stage either. Why are our life situations viewed so little off simply because we haven't experienced the real world? What is the real world? Does being financially independent, getting a job and living on our own considered the real world? Isn't that just a physical aspect, the black and white, pen and paper verification of your 'adulthood'? So does that mean your adulthood is certified by those things? What about the children in third world countries exploited by many others out there? Yes, indeed they are viewed as children of undeserved sufferings, who have suffered much more physical and mental trauma then we of more developed countries have. We are labelled, spoiled, bratty, inexperienced, ungrateful. We are judged from the physical aspect, we are judged on what is conjured by one person, which is then further amplified by millions out there who assume they first observed. What right is there?
Does not the emotional pain that is probably a million times more devastating count for experience? If one teen loses his or her life over some romance failures, is that deemed as stupidity simply because we perceive it to be? If we are not her or him, how can we understand the pain and trauma felt by the different individuals? Do we simply categorize so generally the course of actions just cause we are afraid of the truth, the truth that maybe, just maybe, there is so much more to this teen that the world does not understand, and once again, might I clarify, that this is not about me, maybe a fraction of me, but not me, simply a block of questions I have bottled up and left to reluctantly evaporate, and so, I hope it is not so quickly assumed I am suffering from some romantic loss or such ridiculous assumptions of such. There is so much to one person that the whole world doesn't understand, that the law fears of having to look into to incorporate more investigations and more laws, so much so, that legal terms cannot define the actions because who can judge emotions with words? It is this fear, I feel, that causes the world to generalize every problem handed to them, and therefore, it is said, as we grow older, we lose our imagination. I believe we do, for as we grow older, we have so much physical aspects to handle, that we shut our emotions out, and limit them to the basics. The older the generation grows the more we fear of having much more to handle, so we shut out the first signs of pure inexplainable emotions from the beginning, so we don't have to deal with it. Then again, what right do we have to decide for others, if it is the fear in ourselves. Then again, it is only the majority that is important isn't it, and therefore, it is only alright to force the opposing minority out, or create a large conventional categorization, so that right and wrong is indefinitely accepted by today's society, and is therefore since it is so outwardly expressed, the levels of acceptance, that it suddenly seems that what is right and wrong, has already been set by a system of humans who fear.
I refuse to accept, yet, I have no idea what I am refusing, for it certainly isn't rational to go against a system that is based on fear, for it is not the instability of the system I am pointing at, but simply the silliness of actually trying to go against emotion.
So therefore, I guess we can conclude, that even older people have mass emotions, yet, they only disguise it under legal systems to appear correct. Teenagers are definitely not going through any less, because, they have no legal system, to guard or guide themselves. The emotional wreck they feel of themselves, is more than justifiable, simply because it isn't given the thought it rightfully deserves. Therefore, is it right to say, that teenagers experience more than adults, and therefore, it is the younger that should be deserving of authority? Then again, it is impossible to measure the weight of the emotions for we do not know every individual, and sometimes, the individual do not know themselves.
So therefore, I guess I have finally justified this uncomfortable punch in the stomach, in a minute amount. I still have no answers, but I still have questions.

Today's society is a ruckus, and we are part of it. It is no right to justify, yet our right to clarify. How can we differentiate?

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