Stolen Identity

I have only a sickening slot of 20 minutes to finish this piece I would so love to finish. There, Stolen Identity. I would first like to clearly apologise to the lack of daily laundry to post for the world to see. Where I come from, children from the age of 'able-to-take-exams' to 'able-to-explode-from-a-pandemonium-of-exams' have the mid-monster exams. Yes, while most of the world is having a lovely summer, basking in the warm and inviting sunlight, I am stuck with studies. Evidently.

This piece was inspired in the spur of the moment when a certain kin of mine whom I so much strive to excel ahead off now said she wanted to intern with a local magazine. I wanted to wring her by the neck and... Sixpense none the richer soothed me though. I am re-obsessing over Kiss Me.

I have tried so hard to deviate from the norm, and oh-so inspired statement from a certain literature text. I truly have. Everything that makes me, makes no one near me, anything like me. The word doctors were released from the lips of those who were our providers and supporters. The great lawyer occupation was the enforced on me at a tender age of nothing but 5. I didn't know exactly what this lawyer was, but I knew it would be something I aspire to be. True enough, she gobbled up the this privilege of aspiring to be one. I switched it up, changed a bit here and there so I could be different from her, so I would not be constantly compared. Yet again I failed.

My true first inspiration was a certain girl called Bianca Ryan. She is the first singer I've heard, to move me in a long time. I aspired in that split second, to be a singer. Cliched, I know. It was the first simple aspiration I had out of the tight expectations. It led to vocal lessons, and since we were kins, she too had them. After stopping the lessons, I was forgotten. Unremembered. Cut off from the fact that it was I who wanted to sing. I loved it. Yet, it was she who gained recognition for it, absorping my aspiration as her own, singing her soft praises were many. I hated it. I was hurt by it so deeply no one would ever know, or understand. Selfish! Supposed adults of the world might say. I say, If you would like to be so common like the rest of the minute cubby-holed prune of a person you are, leave me out of the picture. I want to shine, to the maximum potential all cliches can bring.

No one remembered my love for music. No one.

I wanted to be a journalist, and in the eyes of those who provide for us, if I aspire to be one, so should she. So they promote and advertise her to the world of the beauty she is. She truly is, my sister. No doubt.  She is pretty in ways. I do love her, my sister, yet, I want my own identity. So, I embarked on a journey far and beyond, uncovering my seemingly new found love for fashion, cosmetics and other materialistic jargon. It wasn't to fit in, It was to fit out. She wins yet again, overtrampling my sense of fashion, mocking so politely at what I wear. I didn't mind, I drank in the acid that stung. Now that she wants to work as an intern? I want to scream to God and beg him to take me away. I want to live far far away where oppurtunity arises FAIRLY, without providers to promote and advertise simply because someone was older and would experience things  first. STOP LIMITING THE POTENTIAL OF THE YOUNG SIMPLY BECAUSE OLD IS CONSIDERED MATURE ENOUGH. It should be a crime punishable by an endless rampage of angry and broken potential-charged kids, forever.

Stop enforcing your one child's dream to be the statement and proof of your unbiasness and equality in treatment. As much as a child can understand, driving him to the point of stangling bitterness for what you think is right is simply wrong. To those out there who feel like your identity's been stolen, don't give up. Ever.

Like Miley sings, "When my world is falling apart, when there's no light to break up the dark, that's when you look at dreams"

Maybe this post is just to encourage myself and ME only to not be crippled into a length of hurt. Maybe this post is a dillusion and a propaganda to rise an army of dreamers. I can imagine cant I?

So thus, I shall keep all I love to myself and this piece of sun that airs my laundry.

She can try to steal an identity that forms around her by expectations, but I am saddened that her true passion for dance has diminished.

"Limit the young, and they start limiting your love"
Translation: When you start limiting their potentials, they start wondering if you love them enough to except and nurture ther passion, then, they stop feeling your love.

What I want, she suddenly wants too. My growing love for all things with quality is stumbled on by her piercing words of my pickiness. How I should conform and adapt to different people so THEY feel comfortable. No, can't, do. I'm not gonna be a people pleaser, even if it means me going through depression ALONE.

Constantly equalise your children, and you'll realise that you have just cut off their potential almost immediatelt. OR, maybe you're just some evil bigger jack-in-the-box. Smiling for all the wrong reasons.

Regardless, my love for writing will never waver, for its the last thing I have, that she doesn't, and hopefully, does not know off.
I love writing, english, songs, music and all things unimaginable where I live. I will continue to be a part of that unimaginable, and I will grow. I will grow away, because though apples don't fall far from the tree, the seeds are different. The fruits will be eaten and the seeds will be spat out. Where it lands, is only for the seed to know...


Dreams

Take.
Give.
Plow.
Grow.
That's all I want to know.

The clouds.
I long to be
part of. Endlessly
floating.

- C

I will persist. I will persist. This deep hurt I feel spurs me only to aim higher, and yet, to only get far away from this deep embedded bitterness I cannot confess for I will be condemned.

I will grow up, live in USA and make it, then you go tell everyone that she loves to do what I do. I couldn't be bothered if thats all you say, cause along the years, my bitterness becomes numb, and I am used to it. Being used to it, doesn't mean I feel better about it. It simply means, I'm used to the excruciating emotional pain, and no, I won't say: until I can't feel anything, cause it hurts deep. And because it hurts deep, I feel it so often, its regular. The action that is...

So I float I fly, I try. Its not good enough cause I'm not her. So, just have her. Set me free.

M³

Movie Mania and More!

Today, I have decided to do a Movie writing??? The sequence would go like this, "Video Trailer or Part 1 of the movie(If I can't find the trailer), Summary, My Review, My ratings." Before I continue on, I would just like to say more, like I always do! Movies are what I like to call a moving picture. Isn't it amazing to capture life in its most fine, but what about life, recorded, and then, not only can you watch these go on a continuously like a fresh piece of memory, it is forever, available to be seen, and heard. To me, movies are my favourite form of entertainment. Why? Because movies, can never be boring (Depending on your favorite genre, favourite aspects of a movie), or maybe I'm referring to videos. Nonetheless, if I could make a video of anything, it would be the best, worst and most embarrassing times of my life. Simply because, they are the key points which mark my life.

My first boyfriend (That was in Kindergarten! I've never had one since!), my first swim, first barbie doll, first pet, first dog, first race, first charity help, even this blog, and OH. MA. GAWSH! I just stumbled upon an old Disney movie that is showing exactly what I'm talking about like 2 seconds ago! Okay, I am going to start now since the end of the introduction is the beginning of every start.

FYI, this is like mostly, or I think ALL Disney Channel Movies? I hope its not too cheesy for some of you who feel Disney Channel's a brainwasher, but I think I miss the old Disney. Really. Like I said in my Selena Piece, its been part of my life, and at one point in time, Disney did have a lot more meaning to teenagers out there, but now, it feels like Playhouse Disney, and Disney, is no different. I'm the Disney baby of 2003, I started with my first Disney based movie, A Christmas Carol, re-aired in December 2003. I guess I'd have a future rant on the Disney Revolution once I get through the research and such. Meanwhile...

TRU CONFESSIONS



Online Wiki Summary

Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen



Online IMDb Summary

For most parts, this movie, already has its own piece I've written on it, so you know how much I love it, but that doesn't mean I would for the other movies, I just decided to compile them into one for now. Having a dream is what everyone can do, but pursuing it with all your heart, and keeping it, is the real challenge. Now millions of people probably wonder why "Challenge" is so important, I guess "Challenge" isn't the word, but you can't possibly express the gratifying satisfaction of success and reaching this heartfelt goal in one word. This movie shows it all, how sometimes you can want something to much, you go all out, even all wrong, but sometimes, with a little sincerity, and the people you love the most, everything can turn for the better, cause not everything is about YOU. No matter how famous anyone becomes, it is evident there is someone who is there for them, with only YOU in the picture, you are nothing.

Get A Clue



Online IMDb Summary

It seems like a suspense/thriller a first, but to me, this show is all about, plus more. I wish it had its own sitcom. It tells a story of a girl Lexy Gold, who is very privileged. She has a dream, and aspiration, and what more, a best friend who supports her. The thing about Lexy is that her dreams are wonderful, but sometimes, you need to step out of your "comfort ZONE" to expose yourself to the rest of the world. You have no idea what hard work, determination, a little bit of luck and lots of exposure can do to you!

Pixel Perfect



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This was a 'classic' must watch then when Phil of the Future was IN, or at least IN Disney Channel. To be honest, I only watched it cause Ricky Ullman was in it, and he was in PoF, and Aly Michalka was in PoF too. This isn't really an explainable link, but there's a link. Pixel Perfect made me cry. Yes, it did. Sometimes, we do not notice the people we truly care about until their lives are in danger (When Sam was in a coma), and sometimes we don't see how much someone can mean to us by just being the seemingly wrong part of out lives until they are ultimately GONE. (When Loretta 'died') I really liked the message I thought this movie was trying to send. "If you look closer, you'll realize there's so much more one person can mean in your life."

The Cheetah Girls (NOT ONE WORLD!)



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This was my all time favorite Disney show of that year. Simply because I love love loved That's so Raven, and if Raven was in a Disney Movie, I simply HAD to watch it. I loved the show because since ever I don't know when, I cultivated my love for music. This added the first few scoops of inspiration. Imagine having a group of friends you love, and throughout all hardships, you make it to your dreams, together. It doesn't have to be just friends, it could be family too! I guess, what I'm trying to say, is that, throughout life, there are these knots and knottiers between you and the people you love OR hate. You just have to go on with it, look past that, and gaze at the almost (BIG) picture. You would soon realize, that a nice picture have nice things in it, if its empty it isn't a picture at all. Similarly, without your loved or hated ones, success isn't so fulfilling.

I can't write much if you've read the complaint, I.. I mean explanation post directly before this. I really hope it won't affect my love for blogging, I absolutely hate being rushed especially when doing something I love, I get pretty pissed off when someone does THAT to me. So therefore, I have to end here...

Overall, I give all these shows ★★★★★! They all rock in their own way at different times I watch them... I LOVE MOVIES!!! and.. GOOD OL' DISNEY!

Shoes of Prey ft Spurred.

The title is quite uncanny. Yes, Shoes of Prey. The funny thing was the word 'prey', by definition, a prey is - (noun) an animal hunted and killed by for food; a victim or quarry. Quarry being a person or thing being chased or sought. So in other words, Shoes of Hunted, maybe hunted means those being sought after, like celebrities and such, but I think, Shoes of Prey, is sooo much better than finding your favourite celebrities' shoes or what not, its like shoe haven for those who can't get enough of shoes...(Not really me, but..) Here's an info about Shoes of Prey >>> aboutSHOESofPrey

This would be a step by step guide of how to start of shoes of prey!

This is the first page, click the Start Designing Button, or Click Here! 

You should reach a page like the following....>>>

This is where the fun starts! There are already basic cuts for a shoes, for example,

Left to Right, Top to Bottom: Gladiator Heels, Round Toe with Platforms, Round Toe, Wedge, Pointy Toe, Ballet Flats.

And, you come to a page looking like....

A plain template is given, ready for you to decorate, recreate, color, recolor till the cows come home.

Play around with the features. You can change to look of the shoes with each design! I chose Closed toe with top patch. Covered back with a mary jane strap. Finished with a bow.

You can change the color, but the colors vary depending on the texture and materials you use. These materials range from 

Fish Skin

Snake Skin
Soft Leather
Shiny Leather
Patent Leather
Suede
Hair

Click Purchase and you're good to go!

You will come to your shopping cart, listing you design and the price! Click Click Click all the way!! 

You can click the pictures of your shoes to arrive at a summary page of the design like so...

You can even share it on social sites like Twitter and Facebook!

You can change your currency so it is easier for you, however, the downside is that there is no worldwide currencies. Only a limit, but they DO ship worldwide! Should you not be satisfied, there is a money back guarantee when you return the shoe, but you do have to pay the shipping fees. 

For more FAQs of Shoes of Prey, Click >>> ⒻⒶⓆ

Personally, I cannot express how amazingly genius this idea is! I believe there are many out there who would definitely agree, that finding the perfect shoe for the perfect outfit is incredulously impossible at times. There's only so much a shoe designer can design, and there's so much MORE in the heads of shoe fanatics (again, Not always me). You can buy all the brands you want, Jimmy Choo, Alexander Mcqueen, Prada, Salvatore Ferragamo, Chole, Fendi, ANYTHING, but there's always this one shoe you're dying to find, and you search from Salvation Armies, to Second Hand stores, to Blogshops, retail outlets, the list goes on. You just cannot find that pair, just THAT pair. It becomes immensely unsatisfying and annoying, the shoe fiend breaks out. You cannot stop buying shoes in search for THAT pair.

Shoes of Prey has offered an answer. A design website for those who want to recreate the shoes in their imagination. The reality of the shoe and the design are like this example, a nude looking high-heeled shoes. They are actually pale pink and pink leather. You can visit the gallery for more designed shoes, just roll over the pictures, and you'll see these shoes' graphic counterparts.

It is simply amazing, awe-inspiring, ingenious, magnificent even!

However, every amazing idea has its loopholes. This designing site only allows fanatics of wedges, ballet flats, high heeled peep toes and the trend-making gladiators. If you can't get enough of stilettos, boots or wicked looking Prada shoes (You know, the futuristic ones), you'll have to settle for second best for now. Those wicked, crazy and imaginative awesome ideas, are too much for the real world to handle, so keep those amazing thoughts in your head, and start a Crazy shoe site! If you do, be sure to email me the link so I can plat with your site!

This Shoes of Preys post was inspired by Youtube Guru Juicystar07's video. Her giveaway is over, but I felt this video deserved some credit, so please do watch out for such giveaway!



On the whole, this site receives a ★★★★☆!
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I have to be honest here, I was a bit angry 2 days ago. I was posting this full long, well paced, well thought out piece of writing, and I am so frustrated because when I tried to publish, there were technicality problems, and it was not even saved. You can NOT imagine how pissed I was after spending two whole hours on a post. (Yes, I do take THAT long, every piece means something to me, and I am not going to post for postings' sake) I was a bit upset for a minute, sad, believe it or not, it was quite depressing, and I just wanted to give up there and then, but I took a short break, and then today, when I decided to look at my blog, just to read it, (Yes, I do read my own work!) I saw 4 MORE followers!

Firstly, I want to state that this post is indeed a thank you for those who follow me. If it weren't for these additions to my following list, I may have waited even longer to post. I won't deny, I love having followers, it is nice to know that people are reading my work. I believe fellow bloggers may agree with me, or maybe its just me. I have already stated in my previous post how grateful I am to have my first two dear followers, and I  couldn't agree and more, or less with "The more the merrier". Who ever came up with that, is absolutely right in the topic I'm driving at.

So this is a great big thank you for following me, Sharifa, Aia. E, Bianca - CACTUSFASHION and Kylene, and especially Aia E. and Bianca for the first words of encouragement! It is a pleasure to see such comments! Thanks for being such nice people!

My mood: ☻☻☻☻☻


P.S. Food for thought, how do you do your shopping planning?? - As in like, when you have a budget, and you want loads of stuff, what do you plan to buy first?




P.P.S. Any suggestions for blog topics? -if you would like to read my views on certain topics, just comment below with a link to the article/site/picture/post etc.!


P.P.P.S. What would you buy for an older brother-like friend's birthday? - For an older guy friend... Shoes? Guitar? Cologne? Bagpack? 


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